You are gonna read this blog and roll your eyes.
And that’s ok, because if I was reading this blog, I would roll my eyes too. I’m probably being a bit unfair because of our recent spat, so I’m in quite a negative headspace, because I’ve been feeling insecure and needing a bit of reassurance, which hasn’t been forthcoming.
But Gamer Geek spends an awful lot of time gaming. I’ve never noticed before but it’s beginning to piss me off.
I don’t mean an hour here or there. I mean a whole day or evening, to the point that I don’t hear from him or I get the odd text message.
I shouldn’t complain too much, because it could be far worse, he could be out there, chatting up other girls, cheating, playing about. But I think ignoring your girlfriend for a whole day or evening is also disrespectful. He knows too, because he always apologises for going AWOL.
If he gave me a heads up, at least I could plan something in with my time. I probably wouldn’t plan anything, but still. It’s about valuing that your partners time is equally important.
And he’s really inflexible about when he games. I mean I know I just said he could give me a heads up, but really I know that Sundays and Wednesdays are reserved for gaming. I still want it confirmed though ok? But he wouldn’t give up a Sunday or a Wednesday to come and see us. Especially if we weren’t able to see each other another day in the week.
And yet, I’ve given up a whole weekend with my son this weekend to attend a wedding with him.
Ok, so that’s possibly like comparing apples and oranges to a lot of people, I’m sacrificing my routine for a big event, whereas he’s sacrificing his to spend time with us. But if I haven’t already said… Quality Time is my love language.
But come to think of it, I flex quite a bit for GG. I have come to learn this through previous relationships, that being so static and set in my ways and my routine is a detriment. So I have been a lot less rigid. And now I look back over our time together and that isn’t reciprocated either.
Not seen GG since Saturday.
Not had a single text message or phone call to tell me he misses me.
Or a message to say that he can’t wait to see me tomorrow.
Or a message to say that the week is dragging on.
He didn’t seem to be bothered about the social media outage on Monday, I didn’t hear from him until I sent him an actual text message around 9pm; a photo of my new nails and a message to say my messages aren’t delivering on WhatsApp. He replied I know yeah, it’s all down, Facebook and Instagram. So he knew it was down and didn’t even try to get in touch. It’s like he hadn’t even thought that texting was possible outside of WhatsApp.
Because he was too effing busy playing his game.
Why is it that when you ask men for reassurance, they give you the exact opposite and just leave you the fuck alone?